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May 10, 2008

Aku & Malu

Filed under: Uncategorized — mannster @ 10:26 am

ni sebahagian citer2 pasal diri aku..pasal aku dan ke-malu-anku.. . haa…jgn nk salah faham..

Dari dulu lagi..aku mmg pemalu..cam cite dulu..time masih kat skolah..

aku tak cari member pon..sbb malu punye pasal..hihihi..

member tegur..aku reply..then..proses berulang..n then..baru kami jadi member..

its takes time for me to get rid of the shyness..

dont know why..i think..its have more negative effect on me..

Bila aku malu2..i miss a lot of things…yerp..a lot..as example..malu nk tanya cikgu when aku tak fhm sesuatu dlm klas..and then malu-malu nk register untuk masuk skool lain and so on..

yes..kata org..malu bertanya sesat jalan..inside me…there are some improvement..i not that shy anymore..

and im continuously try to improve it..:D

but still..the shyness wouldnt go..maybe i have its own benefits maybe?

most of the reason..maybe sbb didikan family..aku tak biasa do that..do this..and so on..

my life only with my family..

koko at skool..jarang sgt aku g..sbb koko kan petang..baik balik umah..hihihihi..m.a.l.a.s la..

kluar ngan member? parent tak kasi..eventhough rumah member tu blakng rumah aku..[actually..jauh la jugak..hahahaha)

but at the end..aku manage untuk g jln2 rumah member..my parent understands it..:D time tu..rasanya..aku da form 3..

then..aku dpt moto..lama gak la minta bli moto..ckp punye ckp..mak aku suruh tanya arwah atuk..

arwah atuk aku ckp..kalau keperluan..beli la..trus aku dpt moto..hihihih [taruk nama aku, skang da jual da,tade org pakai kat umah. fikir balik..cam membazir je bli moto tu..but..jasamu dikenang :D]

paling jauh..g rantau panjang je..g balik..sampai umah atuk aku..aku tak rasa bontot aku..gila btul kusyen moto tu..seyes x selesa..boleh kebas kalo naik long distance..tu baru rantau panjang..bape minit je dr rumah aku..kalo g konvoi terengganu..lima blas kali stop la aku..

eh jauh plak sesat..topik sebenar pasal malu la..hihihhii..

malu..malu..malu..

how to overcome? malu lebih2..susah nk bergaul dgn org ramai..btul2 susah..

aku training diri..semua kene buat dgn diri sendiri..jgn nk suruh/minta org lain tulung..nk g jumpe lecturer..sblm ketuk pintu bilik tu atleast aku da lima minit kat luar pintu..tenangkan diri dulu..hihihihihih..sbb kan kene speaking..kalau cuak2..nk speaking pon haram..semua berterabur..

and then..pasal assignment untuk this trimester..

aku join group member aku lambat..sbb aku dtg mmu lambat..biasala..cuti2 mesia kat hometown..

aku tanya member aku..nk join gropu dia..boleh ke..

dia ok je..dia ckp “ko g la tanya lecturer..kalau dia kasi..aku ok je”

then aku g la tanya lecturer pas klas..

then lecturer ckp..group member aku ni da penuh..kenapa x masuk group lain..aku ckp la..rumate la apa la..bla bla bla..last2..dia accept..

then after submit assignment..sebelum presentation..lecturer upload la time table ble group aku kene present..

kat bawah group aku ada tulis..ni aku copy sebijik

“Each member will be deducted 1 mark because of exceeding number of group members”

habis bising satu group..sebb aku..kene deduct whole group punye marks..

then ada plak seko yg bising2..melebih2 plak mengata aku..sibbaik la ko..aku sabar..kalu x..Allah je tau..padahal..mamat ni pon bukan reti wat kije gak but still nk ngata aku lebih2..groupleader pon hangin ngan dia..pasal part dia..patut nye kene cari org untuk diinterview..konon2 ada kabel la..skali x dpt..haram..jadi..the whole thing..berlakon lagi..buat2 cam g interview..print pamphlets and so on..padahal..x g interview pon..then..semua kije dia buat salah/still kene edit..then present pon x…hais..

sambung balik pasal deduct marksaku bingung la pasal ni..sbb aku da ckp ngan lecturer..dia takde ckp pon pasal deduct2 marks ni..wth la kan….

then member rapat kontek aku..ckp suh call lecturer..da emergency..aku call,main ckp je la..skali..kluar perkataan “pissed off” plak kat lecturer aku..aiyo..aku da..alamak..silap pilih perkataan la..last2..dia pon tatau nk buat apa..dia suh jumpe dia..

g jumpe lecturer..lecturer pon macam mati akai..tatau camne nk deal ngan situasi ni..aku pon offer la..sbb its all starts with me..aku offer kat lecturer, jgn deduct markah groupmate..deduct markah aku je..

bia la..nk buat camne kn..redha je..kalau aku tau awal2 kene deduct marks kalau group member lebih..aku join gropu lain je..but aku tatau..aku terlepas 1st lecture..mmg semua salah aku..aku ngaku..takpe la..mende da lepas…

jadi apa yg aku sedar..when dlm situasi camtu..kita da ignore perasaan malu kita..sbb kita ada something yg lagi penting untuk ditake care..so..shy no more…at dat time la..hihihih..kalau situasi x memerlukan..im still shyier..hihihihi [ curi lagu im still here]

yes!! 1st time aku krang sendiri punya la panjang..bagi budak tersebut..aku takde hal ngan ko..aku maafkan ko..kira settle..ngata aku lagi..naya la..*peace*

[pada cayunk..b tak ganas la..jus a reminder to him, nk emo2 pon..agak2..tau citer sebenar dulu..then nk emo..emo la..]

8 Comments »

  1. ko pemalu ker..?? tapi ader satu tang tuh.. cpat je ko gi jumpe kan.. hik hik hik hik … ke manekah ilangnyer shyness ko itu.. adakah sudah ilang ditelan bunga2 cinta asmara dana.. aku dh start mepek nih.. sekian

    Comment by kame hame haaaa — May 10, 2008 @ 11:55 am | Reply

  2. i know u my dear😉

    Comment by medea — May 10, 2008 @ 5:57 pm | Reply

  3. 😉

    Comment by mannster — May 10, 2008 @ 7:22 pm | Reply

  4. wah.. comment aku tlah didelete… sungguh sedih ati nih.. T_T

    Comment by kame hame haaaa — May 12, 2008 @ 1:00 am | Reply

  5. eh ader ag. aku igt kene delete dah.. muahahaha

    Comment by kame hame haaaa — May 12, 2008 @ 1:01 am | Reply

  6. Quote:
    ko pemalu ker..?? tapi ader satu tang tuh.. cpat je ko gi jumpe kan.. hik hik hik hik … ke manekah ilangnyer shyness ko itu.. adakah sudah ilang ditelan bunga2 cinta asmara dana.. aku dh start mepek nih.. sekian

    mana ader cepat..
    pelan2 kayuh la..
    mmg..ko mepek je manjang..hahahahah

    Comment by mannster — May 12, 2008 @ 8:00 pm | Reply

  7. sape tu b? cam cacat jek..

    Comment by medea — May 12, 2008 @ 9:37 pm | Reply

  8. hehe..tatau..

    Comment by mannster — May 13, 2008 @ 8:29 am | Reply


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